Honestly that level of paranoia is a bit odd. It’s too bad there’s no simple way to arrange for her to get evaluated.
lol idk if she needs to be evaluated but its really weird how she thinks people seriously plot out their actions. I try to tell her “i dont think they thought it that far through mom” but she insists they did. Oh well….she makes her life harder not mine when it comes to that.
Oh shut up you look amazing! I am like 155 maybe even more but I’m 5’3 and you’re tall right? At least you look tall. And you look just fine :)
haha! I am 5’8ish 5’9ish. I really would like to have my muscle definition back thats all, and my killer arms. yes my arms! I know my self image is a bit distorted based on looking back at old pictures and what i see now compared to what i thought back when i took them. If i can fit into my skinner jeans thats all i care about. im tired of spending money on damn jeans!
You look great love! I hope your not trying to lose weight. :(
Thanks! Im not exactly where I want to be but I also know I’m not where I once was. I would like to be where I was when my husband got home in november which was 137 but really im not focusing on weight loss just losing fat and gaining muscle. I want to have to toned bod i had when he got back.
I’m actually surprised at the 147, i thought i was 150 so that makes me feel a little bit better. Im excited and think i will be able to do this since i dont have to think about what im going to do its just built for me already! The positive vibes and encouragement really helps!
food prep days make me feel like susie home maker lol
cooked some turkey muffins from the jenna easons recipes, we’ll see how they taste tomorrow. I also have a huge pot of chili going. Its not jenna’s chili and it has corn and some bbq sauce in it (a cup for like a 12-15 cup recipe) but its definitely one of the more healthy options for food and it will serve for a few meals! I pre cut some veggies, doing the same to some fruit later so i can just grab and go this week!
Do you ever consider taking her in? I know its a big decision..I think about it w/my little brother just cause I know exactly what it’s like to grow up with my mom and stepdad..dysfunctional.
Yes! Bill and I have talked about it. Its definitely something I have considered and told my sister was an option but its a HUGE responsibility. I need to get settled first back at home before we take her in. Also god only knows what my mothers reaction will be to that discussion :(
i do not know what to do with my mother and my sister…..goodness knows i know how hard my mother is so deal with but my sister is no saint. I want to be there for my sister but i want her to just realize she is only 13 <-this i know will never happen.
today my sister texts me telling me my mother is accusing her of stealing money from her while my mother was out of town, BUT my sister was at her dads the whole time. My sister says john did it (my mother god AWFUL boyfriend).
So i call my mother nonchalantly and ask what she is doing, whats going on, and of course my sister jacking the money comes up.
Now i need to explain something to you, my mother is NEVER in the wrong, she constantly thinks peoples actions are specifically plotted against her, and she does lots of things to get people (my sister and i) caught in the act. She is the type of person that would take a picture of a set up, leave the house, and then check said picture to make sure NOTHING was touched. She did just this, but didnt have a picture. she hid this jar full of change that she suspects my sister dipped into before. She covered it with a blanket and when she came back she says it was moved and it looks like a hand was dipped in it. no ACTUAL proof my sister has been dipping into it, no counts of lost money just what she suspects………………….So she tells me how she knows and i said VERY calmly and with no hidden under tones “are you sure john didnt go into it?” If some of it is johns money when wtf would the problem be of my asking if he went into it? My mother lost it, and started attacking me and getting worked up blah blah blah. DUDE CALM DOWN! She is on HIGH defense when it comes to John. I want to hit both of them. i HATE him, and i fucking have a right to hate him. there havent been this many problems in our family until his dumb ass came along, and these problems arent even including any of his abuse and drunk driving. Anyway she hung up on me because i was just out of line blah blah blah. RIGHT…..i ask a calm collective question, I’m in the wrong….okay mom.
I call my sister and she is whimpering and i ask her whats going on. she really didnt have much to say but she whimpered and cried on the other end of the phone for 3 minutes before asking if she could call me back. She doesnt want to stay there, i know that feeling. all i know is the sound of her crying simply breaks my heart into a million pieces.
outside of their issues, i have issues with my mother. She clings to that stupid mother fucker, but when all goes wrong and the world comes crashing down….who did she call? who was around at 3am on new years eve? Who got to deal with all the bullshit and take pictures of her bruised and battered body? OH……ME! But then when he whimpers and begs and pleads and makes his promises im yesterdays fucking toast. Growing up sucks. Figuring out your parents are people, sucks. Accepting them the way they are, is impossible.
Woke up and saw this on my dash and got excited, Monday we turn it around! NO MORE SLACKING!
seriously ive been SO SO SO bad and i cant blame anything other than my poor eating habits and my lack of working out for the weight gain. I have a game plan all laid out in front of me so its just a matter of following it! 4 days at the gym a week…i can do that! I know it increases but i’ll be in a routine then. LETS DO THIS!