Life in Motion

devildogwifey said: as the pictures progress you look happier in each one!

How funny! I didnt even notice but so true! The last one i am smiling like that because i was thinking about my husbands body though lol.  But i do feel more comfortable with pictures.  I still cant believe how i looked before though!  I still see the girl all the way to the left in the mirror, but this gives me perspective.  Im starting with toning today so im gonna use todays photo as a day 1 to be able to see a difference again.  Hopefully i get the same kind of results in difference like i did with just weight loss

I havent done a single thing in terms of exercise in a week, and to top it off ive eaten like TOTAL SHIT.  On the up side i lost 2lbs!  Does that motivate me to be good and work out and eat well…absolutely not lol but emotionally I think its better for me when i eat properly and work out.

I saw my husbands body on skype tonight, so toning up is a must….i will beat him at this biggest body change into even sexier game oh yes i will.  I have 3lb to go till ive lost 20lbs.  Looking at 20lbs i am realizing that is a pretty big number for weight loss.  I would love love love to get there…3 more lbs and then toning.  Toning training will begin tomorrow morning along with day 1 week 1 of bridge to 10k (repeated).

Am however going to take the lesson from this week of eating like shit and not running and not even really giving a fuck….i stopped stressing about my weight and what i ate and I lost weight.  I ate fairly decent i suppose but i didnt count how many chocolate covered mac nuts i ate, or how many twizzlers i ate…i ate more than i needed to but i didnt over do it.  I stopped stressing about it and i lost weight, so im just going to focus on the emotional well being being healthy has created for me.  I am going to focus on the fact that whether im losing weight or not i am making good choices for my body.  I am being healthy and bettering my body whether there are numbers to prove it or not, i will know i put good things into my body and i keep doing things to keep it getting stronger.

I also need to work on my body image DESPERATELY.  I look in the mirror and see the very same girl that was there in april but im not. I am almost TWENTY pounds lighter version of that girl and still i dont see it (except in my neck).  I know i look at pictures of myself probably 10lbs heavier from last deployment and i wish for that body….why?  Obviously my vision is skewed by my brain.  Im not sure how to fix this. anyone have any ideas?

omg ridiculous….i cant stop watching the ice cream truck video………..when will my husband be home with his sexy ass? oh yeah december :(