May 2011
OK
I LOVE my job, and i LOVE that I’ve been getting busier but holy eff crap today was a HARD day.
I really feel strongly about being there to capture every moment for people, sad and happy. My main goal is for people to gain some sort of emotion via my photos, any photo i take not just the military ones. Today i LITERALLY RAN from a homecoming to a “see you later”. The...
April 2011
please dont let this homecoming get pushed back...
his simple “i miss you”s that come in while i am midstory are all i need
afghanistan....i swear! i will find a way to hurt...
Good Girl
Okay, so i got lazy last night and didnt even do my every other night walk. Poo on me. Then tonight i went to wing night with my girls (before i gets crazy and all the yucky marines get there) aaaaannnddd i ate the wings but i still didnt go over my alloted points so good job me :) Even though i feel SLIGHTLY guilty about my dinner tonight i dont regret it at all. I got together with some of my...
I ALWAYS have weird dreams while he is away
So last night I had this dream that Bill was still here and he was getting ready to deploy and then suddenly I was told I was deploying too. I was packing everything i could think of and could find and i was in a tizzy because i had NO clue what i was getting into and i was scared something was going to happen to me as well as to him. Then the next thing i remember is i wanted to have sex with...
Seriously
I need to work on rewiring my brain…my confidence is shit. I go to the BAD self destructive place first and I HAVE to work myself out of that. I generally can work out logically that im being ridiculous but the anxiety that the initial shit thought creates still lingers. Definitely damaged goods, oh well.
im really hoping i dont lose my bum when i lose...
Just to keep myself
accountable, i will track my some of my progress in weightwatchers on here. I feel so funny saying im on weightwatchers but i feel like im actually doing something to lose the weight ive been talking about losing for FOREVER. im not SUPPOSED to step on the scale but once a week, which is mondays for me. Well i HAD to see if i had lost even a pound in 2 days (mind you for the past week before...
happy dance
honey got online real quick just to a get a chance to talk even for a moment. he was tired and i guess their hours are all kinds of fucked, but he still got on to talk to me. what a good hubs i have. he made me feel a million times better. Now off to the END of the week :) and lots of shoots! SO pleased. Makin that money so i can get me some new running shoes!
oliviatate11 asked: shit girl I'm sorry =/ seriously you don't need some stupid bitch to tell you something like that. I can tell from the way you act and talk about your husband that you are probably an amazingggg wife! Don't let her make you feel bad about yourself, sometimes therapists can be so shitty. I wouldn't go back to her if I were you hon. Their job is to help you find a reason to...
I NEED
to talk to my husband. I went to talk with this lady yesterday in hopes that i could work out some of the remaining issues i have from all my bad relationships in the past. I always feel bad that bill has to deal with my issues, but we always work through it. Well she made me feel like total and complete SHIT! thanks lady…….she made me feel like the worst wife ever, and told me i was...
i still havent cried yet. its caught in the back of my throat.
oliviatate11 asked: And Dani has definitely mentioned you and your husband! and I’ve seen your photography, it is amazinggggg :) I’m actually Thomas O’Brien’s girlfriend, I’m sure you know him if you know RJ :P
oliviatate11 asked: THANK YOU. Ugh seriously I just get so frustrated sometimes. I am totally out of shape right now, but that's because I have a knee injury that I had SURGERY on. I'm a college softball player so I'm usually pretty active so it really sucks not being able to do anything.
It's not even that though...I feel like they have their perfect image of what they expected me to be...
It's not even that though...I feel like they have their perfect image of what they expected me to be...
Tomorrow
tomorrow begins my HOPEFULLY 23lb weight loss over 3 months. My minimum goal is 14lbs the extra 9 will just be a bonus. If I actually hit that weight….well im treating myself to a fucking hot ass bikini because i dont even know if i was at that weight my soph year in high school. Weight watchers tells me its a healthy weight so it is possible. Im amped bc ive heard so many good things...
Romeo&Juliet
is in netflix instant and i totally forgot about it until now. This movie has always been my cure all. Its never brought tears to my eyes until this time. maybe its because i never knew love until now.
“Did my heart love till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw true beauty till...”
– Romeo scene v
“go, girl. seek happy nights to happy days”
– romeo and juliet
MUST VENT
HOLY EFF!!!!!! You know, DO NOT CONTACT ME IF YOURE NOT SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING PICTURES. Now listen, i get sending a message and inquiring asking questions. Ive set up a website so you can have your questions answered there and if youre really interested after seeing my measly prices then contact me. BUT WHAT THE FUDGE IS UP WITH CONTACTING ME SEEEVVVVEEERRRAAALLLLL times and CONSTANTLY not...
Making love is not the same as sex. Sex is when...
i always tell bill its the only way i can get as close as it is physically possible to get to him and sometimes thats still not close enough.
“An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.”
– Mahatma Gandhi
“I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world...”
– Lord of the Rings (via youreverydayheadcase)
Watchbill would KILL me if he knew i released this on ANY public site that ANYONE he knows could see this, but THIS is exactly why i love him. his weirdness<3
