i can feel my stomach muscles when i touch my stomach, no fat to hide them. my bum hurts a lot now bc i havent got a lot of fat covering my bones :( I swear the other day on the boat i was convinced i was sitting on something hard….nope just my boney bum! Damn it i want a perky full bum! my boopies had gone to shit as well. *le sigh*
im not hungry at all, i ate 2 cookies and a handful of bite sized halloween candies in class tonight and now im full (from 2 hours ago!!!!) i need to get these healthy calories in me…..idk how im going to though.
and i wish i could drop in for a few minutes but it doesnt work like that with that crowd. I have 2 homework assignments to complete tonight, then wake up by 7 tomorrow to prepare for ANOTHER see you later, then clean house get ready for class, then class, then head STRAIGHT to the gym, then clean house some more, then pick up haylie from the airport! LONG day tomorrow. BUT do you know what tomorrow is??????NOVEMBER!!!! WHICH MEEEAAANNNNSSSS I will be seeing my husband “this month” :) SO I am hoping they dont get too rowdy because i need whatever sleep i can squeak out.
So, my grandmother just died. My granddaddy has been really torn up about it. I’m scared knowing that one day Rick or I will die and leave the other alone. Hopefully with age comes wisdom, because right now I just want to cry. I can’t imagine sleeping alone after sleeping in the same bed with someone for 60 years. It really weighs on me that each second is precious and not guaranteed. Remember to hug everyone and tell them you care. Seriously. If I can give anyone any advice, that’s it. Love with all of your being, and never hide it.
ugh, im sorry lacie. I think about this daily after losing my cousin. One second someone is here and the next they are gone. I HATE fighting with bill because of stuff like this, I just want to love everyone and enjoy them the way they should be. you never know what tomorrow holds.
20->1 burpee shoulder pressed =210 burpees/shoulder presses! Lol. That took way longer than i planned and i sort of wish I had figured out more for legs but lesson learned. My abs are done for sure though, and i was sweating like a mofo! you live and you learn. Now I think we could shave that time down if i just went from one to another but having 3 people do it took some time and fuck man i needed a break lol my shoulders felt like lead.
I LOVE your blog, it's amazing. I'm completely motivated by your tumblr.. I'm tryin to get myself back into shape because I need to but also because I want to look good for homecoming in May. What are you doing? What are your tricks?
Thanks :) Motivation is key!! I find a lot of motivation through tumblr and a few friends. Having support from fellow tumblrs and friends has also been a huge help with my weight loss. Its pretty simple, just workout 5-6 days a week and eat healthy. Its sticking to that which is the trick. Honestly I started off on weight watchers at the beginning of deployment but i got horrible about counting my points so i let that go by the wayside. It did help me learn more about portion control though and what is better to eat in comparison to other things. I also started with couch to 5k so i was running 3-4 days a week. Its a simple plan that starts you off slowly and builds you up to 3.1 miles in 9 weeks. I couldnt run 4/10 of a mile at the beginning of deployment and now ive finished 4 5ks each time getting a better time :) After I really started to see results slow from that i added the other 2-3 days a week of weight training. So now i run 3 days a week, then the other 3 days im doing incline walking (so still getting cardio) and lifting weights. I would say for eating make sure youre eating 5 times a day at least, and netting a minimum of 1200 calories. So this means if you take in 1200 cals then burn 300 you need to eat another 300 because your body needs 1200 calories to perform the basic functions of daily life. If you dont net 1200 cals your body will go into starvation mode and hold onto everything you put into it and slow your metabolism. NOT what we’re looking for haha. You can find some good calorie counting apps on ipod touches, iphones, or any smart phone i believe. Dont stress too much about going over netting 1200 calories, typically to lose between 1-2lbs a week you want to net between 1200-15/1600 calories a day. Try to eat the least amount of processed foods as possible, i know its not easy but see what you can do with meats, fruits, and veggies and then some grains/starches/dairy in there. I have a hard time with sweets so i still grab 100 cal packs for a snack or dessert so i get my fix. I love fruit now lol. Also teas are a good way to get a sweet fix with some natural sweeteners like agave, or honey. Its a mental game though too, which i still struggle with at least once a week. Youre going to have bad days, we all do! But you cant get down on yourself for those things. The best thing to do is remember this is a life style change so youre going to have things that arent “good” for you (i dont like to label foods as good or bad because that makes us feel bad about ourselves) but thats okay because its not going to ruin all the hard work youve done. Just know that a majority of the time youre doing good things for your body, and you are allowed to have a little extra here and there. Youre going to reach points where its going to be hard to lose a few pounds but just keep reminding yourself that youre doing good things for your body and it will show up. You didnt put all the weight on over night and its not going to come off over night either. Just keep motivated and stay positive about yourself and you’ll see results :) good luck! if you need anything else feel free to message me!
You ever go out with a bunch of people for dinner when you’re dieting? Isn’t that a fucked up situation? Let’s say you’re at a table with seven people and everyone’s ordering their food. You’re at the end so you’re ordering last. They’re getting ribs, chicken strips, spaghetti, and whatever. No one in the group cares what they’re ordering. The conversation stays the same. Then it comes to you and your first question is, “How do you prepare your chicken breasts?”People start looking at you.Then you order two plain chicken breasts with a side of broccoli with no butter or seasoning. The waiter writes it down and off he goes to the kitchen.Now everyone’s looking at you like you’re a freak. They didn’t care that your other friend was eating ribs. They didn’t say shit when the guy ordered his chicken strips. So how is your meal selection any different?It blows my mind.If you ordered something that was complete shit, no one would say anything. But because you ordered something to help you achieve a goal, it’s a problem. And now for the next ten minutes you’re having that stupid fucking conversation. “It’s so easy for you to lose weight,” they say.“I can’t do it.”And you’re thinking, really? Here I am at Outback Steakhouse ordering two plain chicken breasts and broccoli – which is gonna cost me 40 bucks by the way – and it’s easy? This is something I want to do? You think I want to sit here and watch you fuckers eat wings and ribs? I’m here for your company, not to give you dieting tips you’re not gonna listen to…
That’s why there’s so few people who are doing this shit and why it helps to be around people with similar goals. They understand. It’s a rare breed, man. Yeah, you can stay in the middle, take some supplements here and there, take time off for whatever reason, change your program every other week and stay absolutely the same as you are now.
she needs to take an anti-anxiety pill or something. I told her almost 2 weeks ago that the internet went down where bill is at and we probably wont be hearing from him till he is on his way back. Then the internet came up for a whole 4 days at random times and it went back down again. Its been a week since i’ve heard anything from bill and longer since we actually talked to one another. I have come to terms with the fact that I most likely wont be hearing from him for another couple of weeks and I’m okay with that because soon enough I wont be dealing with ANY of this. But she keeps calling me holding out hope that he will some how magically find a way to talk to me. I said I would tell you if I’ve heard from him and I havent. She asks where he is….ummmm the same place he has been for 7 months……she asks if he is okay….i assume so i havent heard anything otherwise and not that things cant happen but its been relatively slow where he is especially in comparison to last deployment. Breathe deep, worrying yourself sick at this point isnt even worth it. We are so close now that I honestly wont be bothered if the next time i heard his voice was as it was coming out of his mouth as he picks me up at homecoming. I know he is her baby, and I had a hard time the 1st week we didnt have communication because of a few factors but he is in the marine corps. adapt and over come right? Well we as the family have to do the same otherwise our lives would be bat shit crazy.
I need to get myself motivated to get rid of clothes that I don’t want/need. I need a lot of things. I just… feel the need to not accept being in a slump anymore in my life. It’s MY life. It’s time to make it mine.
YAY for clothes that dont fit :) Sounds to me you have the right attitude :) If youre losing weight it also sounds like youre taking control of your life (and im assuming its in a healthy manner). It will feel good to get rid of those old clothes, like starting a new!